Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Every Victory is Yours

I love Jeremy Camp's song "Overcome"- "All Authority, Every Victory is Yours."  I recently experienced a "victory" and I just wanted to post it so I would never forget it, as we humans do often. 
Aaron was on a mountain weekend about a month ago and his last text that Friday afternoon said that he would text me when they arrived to the cabin.  That text never came.  My head knew that they didn't have a signal for the cell phones in the past so that was probably the reason he didn't text.  That whole weekend went by and I didn't hear from him until Sunday around noon. 
There was a time in the past when I would have allowed my mind to go to some very bad places and would have assumed the worst- there was an accident, they got lost in the woods, etc.  From experience, it is a terrible place to go and can spiral out of control very quickly causing panic to set in.  I shared with Greg that Sunday morning how I "chose" to not go there and to trust the Lord for Aaron's protection.  I ended up in tears- not in worry, but in pure joy and gratitude for this victory that the Lord had given me.  Fear and worry were not a part of that weekend. 
God is so good! No, He's great!
Then I had to think- I chose to trust the Lord with my thoughts and Aaron's safety, but what if something would have "happened" to Aaron?  Does that mean that God was not trustworthy?  That my prayers fell on deaf ears?  Certainly not.  I have to daily surrender the fact that while I believe I am my children's best protector that I am not.  He is. 
I have come a long way in the past few years since my brother's death.  There was a time when the phone ringing was news of the next "bad" thing.  I laid in wait for the next tragedy.  God has been there in the grief, in the fear and anxiety and He most definitely has been there in the healing. 
Aaron and Sawyer will be leaving this Sunday for a week cruise to Bermuda with my parents.  I've been doing pretty good.  I picture them getting on the bus and ending up in tears but that's not how I want it to go.  I want them to enjoy their first cruise to a beautiful land with their grandparents.  I want to trust their safety to the Lord.  I choose to trust Him. 
"We will overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony, everyone OVERCOME! Savior, worthy of honor and glory, worthy of all our praise- YOU OVERCAME!" 
Thank you, Lord, for healing my heart. Thank you for continuing to save me and rescue me when the darkness closes in!  What an AWESOME GOD we serve!